Sex Tells

You make up, you dress up. You go on a date.
You are very well-mannered, remembering your p’s and q’s.
You are very pleasant, laughing at all his jokes.
You are at your best behavior, a notch up from your usual self.
Problem is, so is he.
How do you then find out the real him before anymore precious youth is wasted?
The answer is simple: have sex with him.

Sex is the best lie detector. It reveals his truest self.
A guy in bed is ruled by something other than his conscious mind.
You can tell in a heartbeat whether he’s selfish and demanding, or sweet and thoughtful;
Whether he’s a bold and confident, or shy and wimpy;
Whether he’s fun and adventurous, or safe and stable;
The list goes on.
Sex can help you find your match.
Not convinced? Try it.

Arctic Monkeys

Saw Arctic Monkeys at the Troubadour last night...hard young rockers with a unique sound..

but man, the lead vocalist is still underaged...how he makes me feel old...

A Day in Life...on Sunny Island Singapore

Sunday 4/15:
Lunch – Family at AMK Hub Soup Restaurant
Dinner – Jon’s wedding at Orchid Country Club

Monday 4/16:
Lunch – Meng at Cineleisure, followed by shopping on Orchard
Dinner – BBs at Wisma Food Republic, followed by Taka Coffee Club, and McCafe

Tuesday 4/17:
Lunch – BP and Chau Yee at Raffles Place Coffee Club
Dinner – Ernest at Casuarina Curry, followed by movie (Sunshine) at Cineleisure, and McCafe

Wednesday 4/18:
Lunch – Meng and Weide at AMK Hub (Prata)
Dinner – 5C gathering at Siglap Café Cartel, followed by coffee at NYDC with Keith

Thursday 4/19:
Lunch – Shaun at PS Café, followed by walk in Botanic Garden
Dinner – Roller blading with Kean at ECP, and scrumptious local food at Food Centre

Friday 4/20:
Dinner – Family at AMK crab, followed by Moon coming over to stay

Saturday 4/21:
Lunch – BBs at Plaza Sing Ichiban Sushi, followed by Starbucks and movie (Meet the Robinsons), followed by manicure with Ann
Dinner – Ann at Conrad Hotel, followed by foot massage
Night – clubbing with Keith and friends at Double O

Sunday 4/22:
Lunch – Meng and Weide at AMK S11, followed by temple visit and shopping at Bugis
Dinner – Family at Bedok (my fave mee hoon kuay)

Monday 4/23:
Afternoon – Shunwei at Tzu Chi, followed by brief hanging out with Meng at AMK Hub
Dinner – Roller blading with Kean at ECP, followed by scrumptious seafood dinner with Kean and Hongwei, and McCafe

Tuesday 4/24:
Lunch – BP and Jac at China Square, followed by visit to Adrian and David’s showcase with Leonard
Dinner – Meng and Weide at AMK Hub Ichiban Sushi, followed by coffee with Keith at McCafe

Grandpa, me and my sis

Me and Moon at AMK bus stop

Sometimes you can find Manhatten in Singapore too..

Cruising on a bike...

searching for

How much longer can my battered heart beat?

How many more relationships does it take
Before all resolve is broken and hope is lost?
How many times do I have to start over
And how much more pain must I bear?

Trudging down the trying path of love
I have long since lost sight of the goal
Where does it lead to and what am I searching for?
A great love? Kids? Someone else’s fantasy?

An answer that can never be found.

A Slice of Pain

I don’t know what to tell you
Not sure how to piece my words together
Distracted by thoughts of you
Running around like cockroaches in my head

That confession replaying like a broken record
I was mentally prepared but my mind was a blank
The hurting numbed my head
The cut was deep, too deep

The Green-eye Monster Speaks Up

Greed and selfishness are inherent in human nature. Yes, we like to possess and hang on to things. We don’t like to share. That’s why we expect monogamy in relationships.

Expectations of monogamy once turned me into a crazy, possessive bitch (which, as you can guess, killed my relationship that would otherwise have been great and lasted forever). It was a side of me that I never knew existed, very scary. Determined not to let that possessive side of me see the light of day ever again, I threw out all my girlish fantasies about love and decided to pursue eternal platonic friendships instead. Soon I realize having eternal platonic friendships is not a solution at all. Managing friendships to ensure they last forever is like having multiple relationships; it’s equally tiring and just as possessive, if not more. So why bother? Why even care? People come, people go. It’s beyond my control how long they’ll stay in my life. So why even try to hold on? It’s really not a bad idea to care less and let go. Just live for today, like there’s no tomorrow.

Lost & Found

Do you recall a time, not too long ago, when you were feeling passionately about something? And you constantly have those sudden urges to take on new undertakings and nothing is too daunting? I sure did, a lot of crazy things, big and small. The good old days where I had auditioned for a movie, learnt Taekwondo, picked up cross-stitching, took part in the Pyramid Game on TV, wrote to penpals all over the world, started rollerblading, bought a guitar (and stinks at it)…what happened to these impulses? The fiery passions that we once possessed got lost along the way as we grow up. The corporate world, and the responsibilities and struggles that come with age had robbed us of our true selves and the fire we once had in life. Since joining the workforce, we find our ‘interests’ converging as we concern ourselves with:

- coming up with the best ‘elevator talk’
- being politically correct
- pleasing the boss
- networking intensively and effectively
- finding ways to be ahead of the rat race

I got to know this guy recently. He’s unlike any I’ve ever known (in a long time): unique and untainted by the corporate evils. What I saw in him is a quality I greatly admire and lack: the ability to remain true to himself. He had gone through what I’m going through (corporate distress and life struggles), except things were a lot worse for him. Yet he had triumphed through all these without ever losing sight of who he is and where his passions lie. He was never lost and he never compromised. This takes a great deal of focus and courage. Inspired, I’m trying to find back the old me, get back in touch with my old self. Watch me, the fire will be rekindled.