Dead or Alive

I guess I can consider myself lucky
I had experienced pure, wholehearted love in my life
When that died, I vowed never to love again
I built walls around my heart, careful not to give away too much
Anything, to ensure I will not be vulnerable again
This worked out well;
I was carefree, worry-free and most of all happy.

Till someone pointed out to me
True happiness is to feel alive
And to feel alive is to love
To take the good with the bad,
To savor the sweetness and feel the pain
So I took the plunge
Into the deep, dark throes of the unknown
You have showed me all,
Exposed me to everything

Yes, I am alive
But I'd rather be the living dead
If the stabbing pain is this hard to bear
I don't want to hurt inside, don't want to cry no more
I don't ask for much
Just a simple life, and perhaps a simple love